Anonymous asked: I think what you're feeling is a word called withdrawal.
I’ve needed this break down
I hate realizing over & over how much i don’t have. How many people i don’t have, nor to talk to about my life and where i’m going with it. makes me wonder how far i should even go with it. how many scene of life really matter to a being and for how long? I guess I just miss my mother, her death always is a reality check for me. things don’t seem real anymore. like how my mom died when i was 13, how lost i was and everything ive done to get me where i am now. 19, lonely and waiting for someone to care as much as i do about this world who is still around, living.
I spent a grand just to seek you smile and yet you crush me with a word. Compare to you money seems almost worthless. You mean too much to me for things to go wrong now. My mind will never let go of how lonely it has been, but in the end I’m the one who is there for myself no matter what.